Hey dixie i know the feeling of lost all too well. Even with the exchange my W and I have had I still feel empty. While at work I forget about my W being gone but when I drive home I realize she won't be there but then I think about coming home to u guys and I actually feel better. I have zero doubt that after spending so many yrs together he can hit the delete button that easy. I refuse to believe that he doesn't think about you. I pray for you guys all the time but if you keep doing what you are doing when he comes back you will be the new and improved Dixie stay the course.