Seeking, me-45,w-44 sorry for scattered writing. I tend to just glide along in life anymore after my MLC. I feel life takes you places and if you let it answers do come. sometimes its onger than we want it to be. No I never medicated. I chose self help books and meditation and introspection. I can tell you the demons eventually came out and I know this from the bottom of my soul. I will say in the middle of my MLC I would get everyday(and that was a struggle)but would look in the mirror and not recognize myself. the alien reference is great because that is how it felt. I did not know me, despised myself, loated myself. there was nothing for me let alone anybody else. it was a struggle to get through a day. I tried to start journeling in the middle but was too dispressed and stopped after 2 months. I reread what i wrote during that time. A confused jumbled mess is what it was.
Yes, I know what demons were causing this and I have forgiven them all which was my way out. I asked myself to forgive but it was well into the MLC that it started to turn.
Thanks for support Seeking. your are right 1 1/2 years is not a long time . I have been weak lately and I know this.
