Well thanks everyone for the great advice. I did see H yesterday and I told him that it was not okay what he did with our S. I told him that it will never happen again. He knew it was wrong and he did apologize for it.

Then we had a bit of a R talk. He told me he loves me so much and he can't stand being away from me and the kids. He said he wants to come home. I told him that I have a very hard time believing him because I have been here with him before. I said we are in a revolving door and I don't have a clue how to get out of it.

He did agree. H says he wants to work things out and if that means MC he will do it. I told him a bit about Retrouvaille and he thought it was a great idea...

So here I sit wondering what happens now. I still am very undecided on my M. H seems very genuine... but for how long???? I will have to take this one day at a time.

Me:35, 2 kids from PR
H: 37, 2 kids with me
T: 15 years
M: 8 years in Feb.
Second walk out: 14-01-2011
H had PA: 2007