DB'ing but it's a daily struggle - need support 2

[ScaredinCanada]

Again, I don't disagree. I guess I just never realized the impact of having my love tested like this...

I never expected it to go this far to be totally honest. I believed it would take some time to believe I could change. I think she believes it - but I don't think she cares anymore.

I'm still here, I still love her and I'm not giving up yet. I'm going to book the MC, and I hope this gives us a platform to continue to identify issues and actually address them.

She wants to goto MC, because she believes an MC will convince me that the sitch is what it is and nothing can be done about it. That's why I said I need to be sure we get a good MC.

To my W, she is just marking the days on the calendar until it's over. I know I'll be better for having lived through this no matter what the final outcome is.