Right now she is not playing with a full deck. The way you view her right now is prob the way she has viewed you for a long time. I get so pissed at my W sometimes but I married her right? What did I see in her on that wedding day that made me utter those words? I can sit and list a dozen things about my W that irritate me but what does that accomplish? True love is seeing those things and still CHOOSHING to live them. This is the point in every marriage where the vows are forged in steel. Some will walk away some will chose to stand. Who are u going to be? You loved her enough to make changes you loved her enough to buy the book and you loved her enough to come here and spill out your guts. Now your patience is wearing thin?