Ouch, you sound like a hurting unit. Sorry it hurts so much.

You asked your W and she gave you a list. Most of all she wants to be left alone. It's hard to do, but you have to leave her alone.

She needs time, a lot of time, if she will ever be able to remember the good times of her life with you.

Take this time to do some hard work on who you are, and who you used to be, and who you want to be.

Live your life while you are still living.
Riding the trail less traveled.