that's a tough one to pull off imp, for no other reason than it means I must admit that h is weak when I thought he was strong...oh and also that it implies that in some way I must also forgive ow and though I pitty the poor little pathetic ignoramous that she is...I'd much rather have the luxury of having visions of beating the living crap out of her or simply giving her a good bitch slap!
ok here's another thought and you can do with it what you will.
on some level I have forgiven h...I have forgiven him for the friendship he had with her...how he fell prey to her little games how he allowed himself to get wrapped up in her little pitty party...on some level I've also forgiven her (after all he is a nice guy who wouldn't fall for him...chivelry is not dead in his world..though it can at times come out in a chauvanistic manner)
I've even forgiven him for leaving...I know there just wasn't any other way once things blew up...I even packed his damn bags for him a few times...so after all he was giving me what I asked for.
The part of me that doesn't fully forgive him is the part that imagines the a to be more than he and ow claim it to be...when I start to think of it as some hot and heavy trashy affair I get pissed off. Thing is h is more likely than not telling the truth about it and it was more of a "friendship" that was lied about and treaded into that line crossing area. So part of the forgiving has to come in some way from me telling myself to listen to h and not my imagination of what was.
so consider forgiveness granted to h for being a fool falling for a tool.
