Hoping to find some peace

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This friday my W and my SIL came and took away everything that belonged to her and my D. I was scared to come home. It was a nightmare. A half empty house. Our daughter's room was picked clean. My W and I spent 1 week decorating that room. I just sat in that room and cried and cried. I am now unable to enter that room.

Al my W clothes were gone too. everything that was hers was gone...

This weekend has been horrible. I spent 48hours in my room scared to venture out and see the empty home.

I am so tempted to call up my W and ask her to read this website. Might be she might change her mind on going through with the divorce. Then i back off thinking that it might backfire.

Sometimes i am pumped up about GAL and pursuing her again. Then i get depressed about things have progressed and all my enthusiasm evaporates.

My W is already setup at her mom's place, taking some courses, looking for job etc.

My daughter's B-day is this week. W asked me if i'd like to come on the weekend. I said No. I am scared that i will breakdown and cry if i see my daughter. Can someone here give me some feedback on this?

My family tells me to stop crying and move on. I just unable to do that. I love my W very much and would love for us to be a family again.

Help!