Oh man Hope I just read your post and I could of swore my W wrote it. This is exactly how she has described herself feeling. Now I would give a limb to have her back and stop this pain I am feeling on a daily basis.
I am 1000% sure H is not even aware of these feelings you are having, he might hear you he might even acknowledge them but he truly does not understand them.
I will never advocate to be a WAS based on the pain that I am feeling right now, I would not wish this on anyone at the same time the pain you are feeling is just as bad. Take some time here with my W I knew exactly when to approach to get the best reaction, after I awhile I just stop caring enough. The same could be true with your H. I think perhaps he should know how you are feeling the question becomes how you approach him when your M is in such a fragile stage.
Would love to hear a veteran here.
Just want to let you know that I am thinking of you.
