Lost, hurt and scared ...

[MeMyselfandI]

Again, thanks for posting ericms. Our SA was signed off last March and at the time, I just wanted it over with. He pulled some really nasty stuff and was an "entitled" little PR. At the time, I decided it was all just "stuff", material things and I just wanted everything over with. I guess I thought I had let it go but obviously, I haven't completely so I still have some work to do there. I'm surviving and I am providing for my kids just fine so why hang on to it I guess.

One thing I will say is at the end of it all, I can look myself in the mirror and know beyond the shadow of a doubt that I never took anything that didn't belong to me, that I hadn't earned and that I didn't deserve. I don't know how he can do the same but maybe in his crisis, he is not seeing things clearly and he can.

Here is just an example of how messed up his thinking is. I had taken my daughter down to a medical appointment in another city which was covered by his work benefits (they have to go through his first and then mine). He told me that as soon as the money was deposited, he would transfer it over to our joint account, (we keep one for transferring money for kid's activities, etc.) Over the holidays, the reimbursement for this trip was deposited into his bank account.

A couple of weeks ago, I followed up and asked him if he had heard anything on the reimbursement yet. He wrote back saying, sorry, it had been deposited over the holidays and he hadn't noticed so he would transfer it right over. Well, a few days passed and I was getting ready to go to out of town and had to take my vehicle to the repair shop. He was also heading out of town so I asked him again, if he wouldn't mind transferring the money before he went. He wrote back saying that he was hoping to "wait till he got paid because he was a little short". I thought to myself WTF does he think I am, his personal bank??? Of course, being who I am and given the fact that it wasn't going to leave me short I said that would be fine. It is fine I suppose; it just amazes me the nerve and how entitled H has become.