Fullsteam Ah.....the bitterness thaht you speak of I know quite well. Irefer to it as rage.
Here is the thing... right now you are probably scared. Scared about how all it this will impact you, scared how this will impact your children. That fear is more than likely making you really angry. That anger will cloud your judgement,which does not bode well for YOU or YOUR H.
Sit down and accept that most of this is out of your control! Accept that a higher power is really in control. Once you can accept this, accept that it is totally okay for you to be really pisses the f*co off. How you deal with this anger is what you should focus on.
As you sit and think about what you want in your sa....ask yourself am I doing this to get even, am I asking for this just to piss him off, am I asking or giving up on this to show him how I have change?
You see if do something with an expectation that it will yield a specific response from him you are doing it for the wrong reason. Sit down and think about what you can live with. Think about how what you are doing or asking for aligns with who you are working to be.
In closing I want to leave you with this.......
Giving aspoiled child everything they want because your tired, guilty, afraid or just angry is not healthy.
Giving up on what you believe in so that you can play victim is not healthy.
Do what is just and what you feel is important for you with no anger, no malice, and with no expectation is where you want to be.
God bless eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
