Till death do us part... or she leaves...

[FellOnBlackDays]

Damn it, I hit send too soon. what does it matter? She won't read tis anyyway. She is killing me. I cant take this any more. I am here in our bed alone. We had a king sized bed and I alone in it. tomororw I have to go tell my grandmtoher who loved us both dearly that we didnt make it. We didn't make it. She is going to be so disapointed. And I feel responsible. So responsible. Why does it matter? This is a horrible world we live in where people can just walk away and the courts approve it. Why do we even appear in front of a judge and pledge our love?? It is all B/S!!!

I spent all night telling myself I was GALing, but all I was doing was spending a ton of money on an expensive dinner to distract myself from the truth. Team, I am a wreck and I am tired of telling myself that I am not. My Ipod just moved to "If you can't say no" by Lenny Kravitz. Very fitting. Hey, dude in Canada, I hope you enjoyed it. She is very beautiful and very good in bed. Good for you, dude. I hope you drop dead tomorrow, *sshole.

Team, I am in a bad way. Please don't judge me from this. I wish I could have done better, but I didn't. My house is cold and loveless. I created tis world and now I wil have sllep in it. I gave it away. Denver,2step, good luck.

Folks, remember this is a war. A war against the loss of love and the saving of love. And with every war, there will be casualties. Only half of us here will save what we want. Dear god, why is this happening....

crap,I guess you can't drink your problems away. hey i didnt punch anyting tonight. I have to go to bed and drive along way tomrorrw. rest my friends. Nobody remind me of this tomrorrw. Tonight I had dinner with a WAS. he told me all kinds of things I didn't know. I have so much to learn.

Dbmod, please don't ban me for this. I am just scared and lost. I have to find my way and I neeed these folks to ehlp me. I konw I will catch a ration of crap from Mr. Bond and Truegritter. I hope others are having a good weekened.

Now, I have moved on to "That's how strong my love is," by Otis Redding. Damn, he is good..

Bits, say strong. I might fade, but our spitrit will move on.

fell