Lost, hurt and scared ...

[MeMyselfandI]

Feeling pretty good today. Got on my elliptical first thing this morning accomplishing one personal goal. Then did a bit of housework, showered and took the kids out to buy a couple of birthday presents for parties today. After that, it was off to hockey with them. One of the parents approached me at the rink saying they had heard that H was becoming friends with OW and then made a remark about "what is he going through MLC?" I had to laugh inside at the comment as it seems he is digging his own grave and the pedestal that everyone has put him on may be getting hacked down a bit. I simply played stupid, kept emotions in check and said, "well, whatever he needs to do to make himself happy is his business."

After that it was off to soccer at our new indoor soccer field. Well, that's when I got my real boost. There is a track around the top of the soccer field and I have been thinking for a while that I should be doing some power walking as I have never really been one who was into exercising in any way, shape or form. Part of what has been getting me down a bit lately is that I really want to get into shape and lose about 15-20 lbs. Well, I went and bought myself a pass for the walking track, threw on my ipod and off I went. Best part was, I was able to watch their soccer, enjoy my music and exercise all at the same time. I walked for an hour and a half solid and loved every minute of it and felt great.

Then, I came down to where the soccer dads were sitting, (no moms around today) to collect my kids and heard "wow, looking good", "you were smoking up there" amongst a couple of other flirty compliments. Makes you feel good and I laughed at them all and made a couple of remarks back. As I walked away with the kids, I thought to myself ... hmmn, give it a month till the weather warms up, the clothing becomes a little skimpier, the shape becomes a little more appealing. Wonder how H is going to feel sitting with all the dads while I'm strutting my spandex walking a$$ around the track in my own happy world LOL.

I will be seeing him at soccer tomorrow as he gets back into town tonight ... not quite ready for the spandex yet but I'll make sure to look my best and it'll be nice that I can walk straight upstairs to the track without even having to see him and start my walking.

I've also decided that I'm going to go walking on my lunch every day. Usually I just stay at my office and work but I'm finding the exercise really gives you a mental boost.