I am sorry to read that your D is final. I am sure that even though you were expecting it, it was still tough! I can understand the state of numbness you are feeling!
As GAG said, now you can move forward in your journey of healing and finding Antonia!
M48 H53 M16 T18 S16 D13 SS30 H drops bomb PA/8-30-09 H leaves 12-30-09 D filed by H 2-10 H asks to come home 4-11 Piecing