Here we go AGAIN....

[wanda15]

Well I haven’t been on here for 2 days b/c I have been on this stupid rollercoaster ride and I have not been able to make any sense of this crap. So bear with me if I start to ramble on.
On Thursday H texts that he is going down to the coast for the animal auction on Friday, can he take S11 with him. I said sure. So yesterday he shows up about 2 hrs late to pick up S. He had texted me a few times and I knew he was going to be late. Anyways, off they go. H, S and H’s friend. The drive takes about 5 hours. H must have texted me every time they stopped. Nothing really important, just texts. His friend called me when they got there to let me know they were there and safe. Then about 3 hours later H started texting again. Just simple stuff like S is eating mega candy and hyper. I bought him toothpaste...blah blah blah!

At one point I told him I was busy and I would talk to him later. Couple hours later we text again and he tells me S had his first cab ride and so on. Eventually I just stopped texting b/c i really didn’t want to talk anymore. And then it happened! I was in bed playing on the computer when I get this text at 12:30am...here’s a head game, i miss you so much right now, im sorry.
I texted back, i don’t know what to say to that. H: did not think you would even respond but i do
Me: sorry but i am speechless H: that’s ok

Well holy crap, I do not know what to do with this. It is all so typical of him. If he can’t get the fight he will try to get to my heart. The whole thing had me up most of the night. I just wanted to ring his neck.
He should be here soon to drop off S and I really don’t know what to do. Very lost these last couple of days. I feel myself backsliding because I can feel emotions coming out that I do not want out. I am keeping to my boundaries but am wondering if I should talk to him face to face because he seems to be having a weak moment...or is this his plan to get me softened up so he gets control back of the sitch????I just don’t know!!! I have been reading other sitchs and my head is so messed up I can’t even comment on much! I hate feeling like this.