The Rollercoaster Ride......2

[Lorie1964]

Wow! Thank you everyone, you have no idea what a blessing it is to come here to read these posts today. HB, your post is most inspirational and shows me the continued graces God has given to me in all the support here.

I will tell you that God has always been a part of my life, but the past couple of years I have been lazy about my faith and feel this time, as painful as it is,is the time for me and God to grow more fully in our relationship.

I want to tell you all a story, when I was in kindergarten my parents divorced. My blessed Catholic mother never gave up her faith. We lived a struggled life and my father lived a life of luxury. We lived in the projects and he had a beautiful home with his new wife and her children. But my sweet mother took us to Mass every week and did what she had to in order to grow herself. When I was in the second grade she remarried and financially things became much better for us. Though she did not marry in the Church, she was faithful and continued to take us to Mass and religious ed.
It was this time that my stepfather started to sexually abuse myself and my sister. This lasted for 10 years of my life. During this time, I followed my mother's example of faith in God and knew that one day it would end. It was a terrible 10years for me in so many ways. Finally, God brought my sister and I to be able to tell our mother what was happening. She was shocked, angry, and sad. She threw him out that very day. She never believed anything he said and always believed us. God was my comfort and guide through those years as he is now.
By telling you that story I am not looking for pity, I am telling you, that part of my life was the most painful I have ever endured. I will never get my childhood back, but I always had God at my side. What I am going through is painful, you all know it is, but it is nothing compared to what I went through as a child. I know God is with me. He is speaking to me through all of you and many other mediums. God is asking me for my patience and that He is working on my H. Therefore, I know at this time it is during this patience my relationship with HIM is growing and expounding everyday. With God, who can be against us! I believe this and I hope you all do as well.

All my expectations are through God, and not H. I have laid my marriage at His feet and I know God will guide me through this to what His plans are for me.

Have faith, for God is not walking beside you now, he carrying you and holding your pain.

Thank you all for being here for me! God is working through you!

Blessings!