"A lovestruck Romeo, singing the streets a serenade Laying everybody low with a love song that he made He finds a streetlight, steps out of the shade Says something like, "You and me, babe, how about it?"
Juliet says, "Hey, it's Romeo, you nearly gave me a heart attack" He's underneath the window, she's singing Hey, la, my boyfriend's back" You shouldn't come around here, singing up at people like that Anyway what you gonna do about it?
Juliet, the dice was loaded from the start And I bet, then you exploded in my heart And I forget, I forget the movie song When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?
Come up on different streets, they both were streets of shame Both dirty, both mean, yes and the dream was just the same And I dream your dream for you and now your dream is real How can you look at me, as if I was just another one of your deals?
Well, you can fall for chains of silver, you can fall for chains of gold You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold You promised me everything, you promised me thick and thin Now you just say, "Oh, Romeo, yeah, you know I used to have a scene with him"
Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry I said I love you like the stars above, I love you till I die" There's a place for us, you know the movie song When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?
I can't do the talk like the talk on the TV And I can't do a love song like the way it's meant to be I can't do everything but I'd do anything for you Can't do anything except be in love with you
And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be All I do is keep the beat, the bad company And all I do is kiss you, through the bars of a rhyme Juliet, I'd do the stars with you any time
Juliet, when we made love, you used to cry I said, "I love you like the stars above, I'll love you till I die" There's a place for us, you know the movie song When you gonna realize, it was just that the time was wrong, Juliet?
A lovestruck Romeo, he sings the streets a serenade Laying everybody low with a love song that he made He finds a convenient streetlight, steps out of the shade He says something like, "You and me, babe, how about it?""
Romeo and Juliet - Dire Straits
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in Cos I got time while she got freedom Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even
Her best days will be some of my worst She finally met a man that's gonna put her first While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you, And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no
What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you, And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces (One still in love while the other ones leaving) I'm falling to pieces (Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)
Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain You took your suitcase, I took the blame. Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in Cos I got time while she got freedom Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break No it don't break No it don't break even no
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok (Oh glad your okay now) I'm falling to pieces yeah (Oh I'm glad your okay) I'm falling to pieces yeah (One still in love while the other ones leaving) I'm falling to pieces (Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)
Oh it don't break even no Oh it don't break even no Oh it don't break even no
BITS Me-51, WAS-52 Kids 2 M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013 Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice. Love is a action and choice you make, every day.
Dude, you are killing me! Why did you have to throw out the Romeo and Juliet? That's one of my top ten favorite songs of all time. At least one of my favorite gut busting songs.
M42 W38 D5D7 M8 Living as 'roomates' since 9-12-10 Moved out 1-7-11 FIL threatened to kill me 1-20-11
Denver, You are my boy and I cannot tell you proud I am of your progress. I don't mean to put any pressure on you, but if your plan works, I am going to copy it word for word. So, I will be watching and waiting to see how things go. Sometimes when I read your "blow by blow" reports, I smile. I imagine myself having those kind of conversations with my W some day...
I agree with everyone here. I think her "facade" is starting to crack a bit. Still very, very early, but in a journey of a thousand miles you have to at least feel like you are moving forward. You are DEFINITELY moving forward.
Dude, tomorrow while my W is here taking more stuff, I am going to think about you and where I could be in a few weeks or months. You are getting better and you making others better by proxy.
Keep the good vibes coming!!
BITS never walk alone!
FOBD
MJ - That's funny! I love that song, but like The Killers version better than Dire Straits.
FOBD - Thanks man. I'm keeping my fingers crossed with everything with my sitch right now. I don't want to backslide and don't want to have to take a hit to my emotional jugular, so to speak. I am not very detached right now and I have to admit, I do have expectations. Not good if things don't work out the way that I hope.
BITS! Denver
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
My W called me at about 4 this afternoon. She was pleasant. She called bc I had told her a couple of nights ago that I would spend time with SS on Saturday night so he wouldn't have to stay at his grandpa's (FIL) house 2 nights in a row. W has singing gigs both tonight (Friday) and tomorrow night (Sat). SS still has pink eye, W's mom is out of town, and FIL always goes to church on Friday nights. So FIL was concerned about taking SS to church since he is still contagious.
Anyway, W asked me if I'd switch nights with FIL and spend time with SS at our home tonight. I had previously made plans to meet a friend for happy hour drinks at 5:30 and she needed to be at her gig by 8.
I agreed and told her that I would be happy to spend the evening with SS and that I would still take him to a movie tomorrow night. I told her that I was meeting the friend for drinks and asked if she would "meet me" downtown at around 7:30 to drop SS off.
She asked me who I was meeting. I told her that it was a friend who was having a difficult time right now. W asked what that meant, and I told her that it was a long story that I'd have to tell her another time. She asked me where I was meeting my friend and I told her. I again asked her where she wanted to meet. W responded by saying "you don't want me to show up where you are meeting your friend?" I explained that I was just offering to meet her somewhere closer to where her gig is so that it would be easier. She said that she preferred dropping him off at the restaurant that I was going to be at. I agreed.
W called my cell at about out 7:45 and said that she was outside the restaurant and couldn't find a parking spot. I went out and met W and SS. W was in her car. I told her that my friend had wanted to meet her. She responded by saying again that there wasn't any parking (which there wasn't any close by) and that she was running late. But I got the impression that she had intended on coming in when she first got there.
Took SS home. W texted me a little later.
W: "Are you guys home? Don't forget SS's eyedrops and wash your hands often! Going on soon."
Me: "We just got here and got changed. All is great!!! Have a good show! And have fun..."
W: "Thx"
I didn't respond.
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Feeling a bit blue right now. I feel that W is drawing closer to me, but I also feel very uncertain. And I kind of feel that maybe I should not have been so available tonight to watch SS. I don't know. Kind of feel a bit like a doormat. I also can't help but wonder if OM is at her show while I'm watching SS.
I don't even know what the status is with OM, and I have no reason to believe that he will be there, but I would definitely feel taken advantage of if my imagination turned out to be true. I guess that I will probably never know.
I also feel a little blue bc I am having a problem being patient right now. Because I feel her drawing closer, I want reconciliation to happen NOW. I don't want to wait and be patient anymore.
As I was watching a movie with SS, I let my mind drift. I imagined W calling later tonight and her somehow ending up coming to our house and spending the night in our bed with me. I know that this won't happen, but I can't tell you how happy that would make me.
I know that this is a boring update. Sorry. I just want to document everything so that someday I can look back on it all as a reminder.
Take care everyone. Thanks for reading!
BITS Denver
M 43 X 38 T 13 W moves out of home 11/2010 Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012 I request divorce 5/2012 W moves home 6/2012 Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015 I leave 3/2016 process of divorce
I share the same feelings as you and my imagination is my worst enemy. I also felt somewhat of a doormat when I was there in OK helping her put things in her apartment. I am starting to wonder after the flowers and the 5 hour convo if I should go dark a little bit and not be so quick to answer. At some point I believe they should have to do a little bit of chasing and do some work.
As for your W. She is definitely interested in what you are doing and who you are going out with. This is progress!! Right now keep playing it cool, the question remains how accessible do become for them?
She asked me who I was meeting. I told her that it was a friend who was having a difficult time right now. W asked what that meant, and I told her that it was a long story that I'd have to tell her another time. She asked me where I was meeting my friend and I told her.
Whoa, wait a minute! I thought you were going to stop with the lady friend. You admitted that having female friends that excluded your W had been a problem from the beginning of your M. Yet, here you are STILL doing the same behavior.
I can tell you from the way W questioned it, she isn't happy about it b/c she sees you in the same pattern as before.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
Have a good show! And have fun..."