grr - I'm very sorry for what you are going through.
Let me ask, what would you have done differently?

My plans are to do things one day at a time. We had a great long conversation about the R yesterday where we even outlined check ins weekly so we don't get off track. I am going to daily check in with myself to make sure I don't stray. I figure that this will eventually become my routine.

m 40
w 38
married 15
together 18
d11, d8
bomb 12/19/10
2nd bomb 3/30/11
COMPLETELY DONE