Bond and FOBD are giving you good advice Dixie. Focus on taking some control back from your H. You do this by detaching and GALing. Again, I think that you should go really dark for a while.

Sorry that I don't have time to write more. It is late and I am very tired.

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Denver

M 43
X 38
T 13
W moves out of home 11/2010
Roller coaster from hell 2/2011-5/2012
I request divorce 5/2012
W moves home 6/2012
Good time 7/2012 - 1/2015
I leave 3/2016
process of divorce