just venting here to keep myself from talking to H

[grebjack]

I have no idea how things are. My husband takes my calls and has called me a couple of times recently. The phone conversations are friendly and we laugh more each time and I have the privilege of knowing what's going on in his life and in his head - it reminds me over and over again why I fell in love with him. I haven't seen him in over three months. He won't come see me or let me come see him. And he's moving 1000 miles away in five more months. I feel like things are improving at a GLACIAL pace and he's RAPIDLY growing more accustomed to life without me. But I'm doing a better job of accepting my situation - doing my best and just accepting that I may not make the right decisions and I won't know until it's too late.