is it the crummy weather? is it just a general gut feeling that I've always had that's just been shoved in my face with the whole sit around ow and h's request for d etc?
I duuno?
I did say that these next couple of months wouldn't be easy...but it seems there's more ill feelings than I'd expected.
I just get the feeling that some day I will be once again faced with this mess...only then it wont be such a mess...kids will be grown (if h isn't as stupid as to leave "his" town with ow again as there's only one of "my" people in "his" town and she very rarely goes out during the day)
just don't trust h... just don't believe there is a "real" marriage here. just don't feel safe in this m
