Thank you, I do love her and would like her back, but i think it cant be as before, im happy for her to go and have as much time as she needs, something is wrong i know but i feel i have no security at all. I want to GAL, i guess its the fear of what her reaction will be, i didnt speak to her one night, i nodded off as i hadnt been sleeping, she accused me of standing her up but in a joking kind of way but i can sense it was no joke, i wanted to end facebook chatting but then she said how else will i chat with you, my councilor said shes having her cake and eating it, guess that true, but i love talking to her, i dont say i love her, and im always kind and happy, if i said thats it no more chat i know she will say thats fine then, a day or two later my phone will start ringing and she will find an excuse to talk and get me back on there, maybe im not strong enough, may be its my fear of the ending...kevc
