Running out of time

[whitneypinch]

Ahhhh Goodfight.
I am so sorry. I can see and hear all the pain you are going through on this awful roller-coaster.

I don't know what to say.

For me it has been marginally better sine I stopped initiating all contact with my X.
Not hardly a day has gone by without her contacting me though.
Just last night she sent me a photo of my cute son at a birthday party after he drank his first can of Coke. Then she texted me this morning saying he had a hard time falling asleep. I only replied to one of the texts.
I think pretty soon I am just going to stop replying unless the text has a critical answer required.

So many people (including my father-in-law) said just to leave her to see if she misses me. I was not in a strong enough place to do that until now.

I will tell you, although I don't contact her I still hope she contacts me. I can see her trying to get all buddy buddy with me but I know not to get sucked in. It keeps happening. As soon as I return the affection she disappears.

This weekend she is taking my kids away skiing. It will be very interesting to see if she sends me photos. I am starting to strongly consider just not even replying anymore.

As DB states so many times.... we have to leave them along to complete their journey. If they return or not is out of our hands. I believe I have shown my X all that I can show her about myself. If she is not interested I really can't do anything about that.

If my X approached me to ML I just would not be able to do it with her. As much as we had the greatest s*x life (and we did) I would not be able to be with her and it not mean anything.

All I can suggest is "try" to get away from the mess. Get off Facebook etc.
Be decent with you X but don't get sucked in.
As everyone say's "if they want to be with you, they will beat your door down to get to you"

(((Hope you have a better day)))