I for one am glad your sticking around LL. I'm going through a frustrating, mistrusting time myself, and I think we can help each other. I think your justified about getting your nightie in a knot over H not being ther for your S. But now, what are ya gonna do with it? I know it's hard to let go of that kind of stuff, and it does not sound as though your H is open to discussion on it, so it's good you come here to vent. What would happen if you DID try to talk to him?? Rachael