Lost, hurt and scared ...

[MeMyselfandI]

Thanks for that Antonia, I think you've hit the nail on the head with the search for identity. It fits right in with him telling me that he acts differently depending on who he is with and what the situation is. He hides things from his family and certain people who he knows would judge him for it . I guess that's why it is so difficult ... I mean, do I even know the "real him"? How can I if he doesn't know himself. This certainly helps with detaching.

He needs to go through this journey into neverland to find out and I need to let him so I can find out too. Then and only then can I decide if the person that emerges at the other end is someone I want to be M to.

I think it's frustrating because the image that he projects is one of superdad and superman and sometimes I just wish others would know what has really gone on. I guess that's why I have this board. My family is all hundreds of miles away and most of the friends I have are mutual friends with him so I don't really have a sounding board when I need it. Thanks all for listening.