Lost,
Call me crazy, but is sure sounds to me like you have already taken some control. You are GAL'ing, taking care of yourself and have him in a position where he seems to be wanting your attention. No, you may not have control of the sitch. But you do seem to have some control over what is happening to you, right? I like where you are. It isn't a sandy beach in Hawaii, of course, but there is a change in your tone. You are starting to show some confidence whether you realize it or not. I like it. I like it alot and I am so proud of you. We may not be able to offer you the best advice all the time. But we can always offer you a kind ear and a hearty amount of friendly support. Keep going, don't stop, don't look back. I think you might be doing far better than you imagine. You and Denver are really turning a corner and I am proud to call you BITS!!! Make us proud!

BITS never walk alone!

FOBD

Me: 39
W: 36
T: 15 yrs
M: 9 yrs
S: 09/10

So you can get on with your search, baby
And I can get on with mine
And maybe someday we will find,
That it wasn't really wasted time...