Deja vu seems a lot different this time around...

[mj144]

Trying to hold on. Nothing seems to be going right. My GAL right now is me spending my evenings away from my family in a townhouse where I am renting a room, by myself on this forum. I don't feel like reaching out to my friends because I don't want to talk about my sitch. They don't understand. I am trying to get back into my P90X routine. Tonight will be the 3rd night in a row for me. I had gone 7 weeks into the program and then the holidays and my sitch started going south, so I stopped.

This weekend is my weekend away from my kids, so that certainly isn't helping. I may try and drag myself up skiing on Sunday, but that will also be by myself. I sure seem to have done a pretty good job of isolating myself. I think maybe right now, I'm going through a stage where I want to be miserable for some reason.

This whole job sitch is wearing me out. What I initially thought was going to be done last week is now going to drag into next week. I have been able to keep this one company which offered me a job last week on hold, but I don't know how I can any longer. I don't know what to do. If I accept the position, the money isn't right, but if I wait for this other position and it doesn't work out, I could be right back to square one...UGH!!!!