Thanks for the comments. It's hard to hang in there some days.
I've noticed a change in my husband since Tuesday. HE seems more depressed .... distant. He went to work fine and then came home different. I was having a party and even people who don't know my H and I or what is happening in our life asked what was wrong with him.
I have asked what's wrong, but he says "nothing". But, my gut just tells me there is something going on.
I told him last night that I made a very big mistake in the past by just letting him be and not asking questions and I was hurt very badly because of that mistake. I told him I would never make that mistake again. I asked if it was work or me? "No." he says
"Is it OW? Did you go to her website? Did she contact you?"
He replies, "why do you always assume it's about her?"
I say "fine" and walk away, but I'm thinking to myself ... "Why wouldn't I assume it's her. You haven't said those three magic words. You haven't come forth and said I'm really sorry for what I did to you and the kids.(Yes, he has apologized, but not in the way I need it or for the things I would like him to apologize for.) You haven't said I want you to be in my life. I choose YOU!"
Ugghhhhh!!!!! I just want to scream and pound on the keys. What's wrong with me today?
I will sign off for now.
VelvetPear
With time and patience, the mulberry leaf becomes a silk gown.
~Chinese Proverb~
