Having a hard time... II

[MrBond]

Do you have an FB or Twitter account that she can also check out? The thing is that because you don't want to talk to her, she can't see any changes that you are making. I would start posting about your triumphs so that she indirectly sees you changing.

Have you found a job yet? That was the most important thing. IMO I wouldn't be picky and start looking for opportunities outside of what you were looking for.