Got a text from the W this morning. She's on her way home and she's been very engaging with conversations about the future. Most of it has to do with all of us moving and not really the R but that's ok.
She texts me this morning, that she's exhausted, confused and done. I don't think with the R but with the whirlwind trip that she just took. Everyday was something and she didn't get a chance to slow down. My W needs a day to unwind and she didn't get one at all on the trip. It was quite stressing and gave her confusing thoughts.
I told her it is time for her to rest and she said that she would. I then said something that I just felt was the right time to do it. I felt that she needed a little reassurance and so I texted: Haven't said this in a while but I love you. No matter what.
She returned: I don't deserve it after all I've put you through. I'm so confused on what to do. I used to know but I feel so lost now.
Me: I am here for you, remember that. We will make it through this. Listen to this, I love you now more than I ever have and am more determined than ever to win you back. I admire you for taking the trip and doing something so difficult.
She didn't return because she was literally boarding the plane. When she landed halfway, she texted about the Ds and said she would text more later about the other.
I'm not sure how to read it but I'm going in with a positive attitude. I'm acting AS IF she is excited to see me so when me and the Ds go to pick her up, we'll all hug her, show her love and welcome her home.
I bought flowers (she loves them) and even made a gesture by buying a movie that a few days ago she said she wanted to see. I'm listening to her instead of just hearing...
What I plan for the rest of the day after I pick her up is to let her spend time with the Ds. I'm going to go to a movie so that way she doesn't feel pressured into talking any R stuff. She just had a horrendous week and I can wait. I get all day with her tomorrow.
what does everyone think? I do have a plan moving forward too. I'll let you guys know more if we still take a baby step forward.
m 40 w 38 married 15 together 18 d11, d8 bomb 12/19/10 2nd bomb 3/30/11 COMPLETELY DONE
