Cathy suggested I come here for some help and encouragement. I started a thread (Need help dealing with the OW #618118 - 12/06/03 03:08 AM) in the newcomer's section if anyone wants an abbreviated version of my H's A.
Right now I am dealing with feelings toward OW. Being able to discuss it with members of this board has really helped. By putting my feelings out in the open instead of bottled up inside, I feel better. Right now, I don't think H can handle my negative feelings towards OW. I think my feelings feel like attacks on OW or possibly H and it causes H to feel like H needs to protect or defend OW which is not what I want or intended when I share my feelings.
Kudos to H for last night. Our love making was the most intense connected piece of time we've spent in awhile. I mean we were both really into it .... one of those rare wow moments. Then, the BEST part? I told H many conversations ago how rolling over away from me after sex made me feel like H was shutting me out and that I didn't want to appear clingy by cuddling up to H. Well, we finished making love and H curled up with ME instead of rolling the way I know H is most comfortable. What a great way for me to fall asleep last night! Thank you, H!
Anyways, to my question .... My 16th anniversary is coming up right after Christmas. I'm not sure how to spend it. Try to make a big deal of it with a night out at a hotel or should I just let it slide by quietly and hopefully plan for next year? H doesn't give a lot of input.
Our R still goes day by day. Today I'm in a great mood... so far .... mostly because of last night. But tomorrow .... who knows?
I don't want to push H into something that will only set our R back. How have others handled this situation?
VelvetPear
With time and patience, the mulberry leaf becomes a silk gown.
~Chinese Proverb~
But tomorrow .... who knows?
