See, going dark, getting away, detaching, it's what is inspiring him right now to act like an indecisive jerk. It was only a week and a half ago that he told me he was leaving. So I did what the book told me to do. I told him that I thought it was a good idea. Well, he's been backpedaling ever since. That's when the pursuit started. I really was calming down a lot until the pursuit started.
I do what all of you are telling me to do. I've carved out my own space in the house and I stay there. I GAL and I am finding my own life. Well, he's reacting. Thing that is making me crazy is that I don't know what it means. And yes, he's annoying me.
I am trying to book a trip back home. Been online everyday trying to find reasonable tickets. So that is a great idea.
Dbmod, I signed up for a DB coach 2 weeks ago. No one has contacted me yet. I have written a couple of e-mails to corporate with the receipt but have heard nothing. Hopefully I'll get to talk to someone because I think that will calm me down. I have completely stopped talking to anyone who has any interaction with my H whatsoever. He's asking questions of them and I don't want someone else expressing my feelings. So, let's just say my circle of friends has gotten very very small.
Oh and the FB thing... well, that got interesting too. The OW and my H have de-friended one another. The pictures are gone. They are still talking, that I know, but no idea what is going on. Suddenly, he's been off the computer at night also. Not sure if this is for show or what.
Oh and Wanda, yes, my H's ego is HUGE. That's probably what started a lot of this. I didn't stroke it and he doesn't do well when folks aren't fawning all over him.
Thank you all so much for spending time with me on this. It really feels like you all get it. I really feel cared about when I show up here and that means the world to me.
That's all for now... 10 hours until my next workout.
