Do you want a divorce? I don't think you do still. If you don't, can you please find a new C? You need someone on board with the techniques that you are using and that are taught here. As you rightly pointed out, everything is reversible that you stated here. Everything. You need to be supported. You deserve to be supported because what you are doing is very difficult. I think the divorce rate is so high because people give up so easily. Both people. This is not you. So find some support that will help you through that.
I understand what you are saying about missing the affection. I fall asleep with my cats in my arms which is just so pitiful to me when I think about it. Here's the thing, you're not ready to date. Not by a long shot. You are still committed to this thing. And right now any dating would be in response to loneliness rather than a true desire to date. Get it out of your head for now.
As far as your list goes, I don't think I could so it any better than 2step who clearly took a lot of time with you to walk through it.
Listen, being friends, it is so positive!!!! Heck, most of us were friends with our spouses long before we started dating them. So basically you're going back to the beginning. I think that is great because there are people here who can't get their because their spouses won't let them. So, yeah, it's a big deal that you're there. Big deal.
Don't give up. You're not ready and it's not time. Let her sit it out in her new apt. I think that is going to wear off. Let's see if the grass is greener.
