I don't have any advice to give, I just wanted to say "hang in there." You've been through a lot, and there will be rough patches in the future. But you will get through this, and there will be happy days in your future.
M: 41 W: 33 T: 10yrs M: 8yrs Bomb: 11/09 W left the state: 1/10 Going dark since 21/1/11