MJ, I second that. Getting a job needs to be your number one priority. Why? First, you will feel better about yourself and your sitch. Two, you will be able to get over your fear that your children aren't looking at you in a favorable light. Three, you will have the monetary means to defend yourself should she hit you with the D. All of these things will work to make you stronger and more able to DB or at least protect yourself. I know, right now you feel vulnerable. You feel like she has you by the sack. If you wallow in this, she will continue to have you. Get that job, man! Get some income and then you will be one step higher on the ladder than you are right now. It will feel better and your mind will clear a bit because you will have something new to focus on.
Think of it this way. Have you ever had a problem in your life that you have figuratively stood in front of for days and cannot get around it? So, what happens? You get pissed and walk away for some time. Then, when you least expect it... BAM! The solution hits you right between the eyes. Focus on the job search, leave the W, the IL's and the drama alone for now. Once you have that job and you feel better and are thinking better... BAM. You just might find what you need to begin successfully DB'ing again. Just give it some thought.
BITS never walk alone!
FOBD
Me: 39 W: 36 T: 15 yrs M: 9 yrs S: 09/10
So you can get on with your search, baby And I can get on with mine And maybe someday we will find, That it wasn't really wasted time...
