Lost,

You are frustrated, angry, scared. Lots of emotions in you. You seem to react to everything your husband does. I did the same thing too. I may still do it now as well. This is why it is important that you learn to shift your attention towards yourself.

You are doing good with your GAL. Keep it up. Like one good man said on this board, it's all "wasted energy" if it's not focused on bettering yourself. Stay busy taking care of yourself. Try as much as you can to not focus on your H's comings and goings. If you work at it, it will lessen your frustrations. You'll be less depressed.

You can do it, Lost.

Joel


Me:44
WAW:43
Children S13,S11,S7
Married 17 yrs
W left JUN 08
W filed JAN 09
D proceedings dismissed AUG 09
W refiles 1 MAR 11