Lost, hurt and scared ...

[MeMyselfandI]

Thanks Grace, so far so good today. Did get most of my to do list accomplished even though I stayed up late reading these boards.

I've been doing some thinking on this MLC/childhood issues and my whole DBing plan. Something that keeps coming to the front of my mind was a conversation that H and I had in November 2009, just a few weeks pre-bomb. After a few months of difficulties, he and I seemed to be in a good place and were communicating and really opening up with eachother. We were talking about the differences in our families, (he hides a lot of things from his family and seemed to always want to impress them) and he said to me sometimes he thinks about just jumping on a plane and going to his parents to sit them down and tell them who he really is. Everything that he has ever hidden from them, he wanted to lay on the table. He said he was afraid of what the consequences might be and I assured him that if his parents didn't accept him for the wonderful person he is, it would be their loss. He said he was envious of my family because we are very open.

Fast forward to post bomb, on his list of complaints, he said that we come from different backgrounds and it causes animosity between us. He went on to say that I don't like his family (which is not true, but I have never liked that we have to hide things from his family) and that I have tried to turn him against his family and therefore he can no longer enjoy time with them because of me.

This whole thing has always confused me and I wish I could somehow get some clarity to try to sort this one out. I'm not sure if his family should/could/would come into play during DB but understanding the whole thing may help me to figure out what I should do if they do happen to come into play.