It's taken me a while to respond to your post here. I've had to read and re-read it about 5 times before I could come anywhere close to thinking of one.
Thank you for your transparency, empathy, understanding and honesty here.
I still haven't made any decision. To stand or stand down. I am still thinking, weighing and evaluating.
Coming here was an additional blow I never expected to take, finding out that this may be a MLC another bomblet for me to find among the ruin of what once was a "good life."
Am I growing? Yes. Will I continue to grow? Yes. Have I changed? Yes. Will I continue to do the work necessary to make those changes possible and permanent? Yes. For my own and my kids' sake, yes.
The way I see things, this is no win situation from what I'm reading and discovering about MLC and in what you all have told me.
It's not what I want, not what's best for my family, with no alternatives that don't involve a heavy price.
BITS Me-51, WAS-52 Kids 2 M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013 Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice. Love is a action and choice you make, every day.