When W called the first time we had just finished discussing everything when she got a phone call and said she would call me back. (there was no reason for her to call back). A few minutes later she called. I made sure that I sounded in good spirits. Talked to her about our saltwater aquarium, our dog and what she has been doing. W talked about stopping by our house and getting something small, then going for a run before work. I acknowledged her statements. Then I politely and in good spirits ended the conversation, told her to let me know when she wanted to discuss bills this weekend, and to have a safe night at work. She sounded a little surprised that I ended it first, atleast that's what I think. She told me to be safe too, and we hung up.
It was so hard for me to sound happy and to end the conversation. But as I was talking to her I thought about the alternative. W becomes disinterested in the conversation as I continue to talk and try to hang onto every word, and reaffirms her decision that she is not happy and wants a D.
I hope this is what actually happened and is not just what I believe took place. The power of uncertainty.
BITS
M:34 W:28 SD:9 D:6 (pr) M:3 T:6 Separated 1/16/11 ILYBNILWY 10/25/10 PA discovered 11/12/10, began about 10/1/10
I am not who I was, I am being remade, I am new...