Morning all, thanks again for your comments and insights. Your suggestions are all excellent - love the rehearsing scenarios in my mind, Sandi; and thinking in smaller steps CL feels like a weight off my shoulders. Between your feedback and my appt with IC yesterday I feel renewed courage and optimism. The depression continues to ease, thank heavens. I'm so blessed with a doctor, therapist, and you all - who were able to catch me before I fell too far. Many, many thanks for the hugs and kindness.

So. I'm setting goals for this week. Just two so it's not too overwhelming or easy to forget: 1) MUCH more patience with myself, and 2) practicing what I want to say BEFORE I need to say it!

Will keep trying my best, and keep you posted. Hugs and warm thoughts to you all, FMV.

I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.