Lost, hurt and scared ...

[MeMyselfandI]

OK, trying to spin myself out of this funk. Haven't really been feeling good about myself lately and with the news about possible R with OW, I've kind of been sent into a spin ...
so I need to set some personal goals:

1. Work - I will set a to do list every morning and try to keep my focus to accomplish what I set out to do.
2. Activity and diet - I really want to lose 20 lbs. I will start with elliptical every monring and eating healthier.
3. Fun - I will start getting out more and reconnecting with friends and laugh - I will laugh till my stomach hurts.

Just a brief exchange I had with D10 that I wanted to share. She mentioned to me that she overheard H telling someone (she wasn't sure if it was OW or another friend) that I was being nice to him. Not wanting to read anything into it but it is good to know that he at least talks about me and it's not all bad. He's probably a little confused 'cause I had been LRT/dark for quite some time but wasn't really seeing results. Also, after careful consideration, I realized that during our M, I often retreated to silence whenever we were having difficulties and communication was one of his big complaints and he was certainly right.

On the DB front this week, I'm hoping nothing comes up for the kids and I can avoid contact for this week. He is away for work and likely will have lots of thinking time alone so I will leave him alone with his thoughts.