Do you have another thread? Not much info above to advise on.
Take a deep breath. DON'T call her, text her, etc until you get yourself together. If that takes days, weeks or months then sobeit. Better to have good contact or no contact at all than bad contact.
Make a list of all you did wrong that didn't work and all you did right. Take the list of the wrongs and beside them, write alternatives to that behavior so you can do better next time. You said you've been doing all the wrong stuff for the past few months... then stop doing it.
Me - 38, 2nd M, no living children, 1 forever 6 yr old boy H - 44, 3rd M, twins 16
Dating 4/07 M 10/08 Bomb #1 12/10 Bomb #2 1/11 Bomb #3 12/11
