Thanks FOBD! For both the kind words and the support! I hope to give inspiration for sure. I will not leave these boards for this is a very long and hard journey for sure.
It's funny because since I feel I'm taking the next step, I wanted to really start speaking her love language so I read the book The 5 Love Languages and noticed that she had filled out the questionnaire at the end. I saw what her love language (primary and secondary, actually) and put them into place immediately.
I sent her a text right before I went to bed and said that I rolled over and put my arms around a pillow because I thought it was her. I said, "I guess that means I miss you :)"
She responded with a smile. I know that she feels love when she hears those things. I'm not usually one to gush like that (with others like co-workers, I am - weird) with her I'm changing.
You know what I realized? That if I give her what she needs, I will get back what I need ten fold
m 40 w 38 married 15 together 18 d11, d8 bomb 12/19/10 2nd bomb 3/30/11 COMPLETELY DONE