My problem is I am having a hard time distinguishing from detachment and not giving a crap! As I say that I booked some more sessions with my DB LOL. Talk about confused. I do get angry sometimes. I think of it this way. If I love someone I can be hurt and leave still loving them but if I see an effort and real changes then why wouldn't I try again my only conclusion is there is no love. Am I wrong? Healed? Not even close, although I have made it 3 days without crying that in itself is amazing.
I would love to save my marriage but as you know I am in such disadvantage. Even if I was to get a call from her saying "hey come to OK for a weekend so that we can just hang out and talk a little" I would fly out with no problems. Seeing each other would do some good but this is just miserable. There is no answer for how long one should hurt but after three months hope is starting to vanish and that makes me very sad. How do i let go with love?
Truth is I don't think I can be friends with a woman I love so much. What are we suppose to talk about "so how is your new boyfriend doing? Oh that's great I am so happy you love him so much" I just don't see it
