Losing my motivation....need some advice quick...

[zengypsy]

UPDATE.....

Weird cosmic force in the air! I am going for a second consult with a diff atty tommorrow AM to discuss diving assets and liabilites. Again, doing this just to protect myself. Court date is set for 2/8/11 IF uncontested.

Here's the weird cosmic part....H happend to call tonight about discussing the same issue that I am going to the A for tommorrow. He doesn't know that I may seek legal counsel at this juncture. I didn't answer the phone-he left a message. He sounded uncomfortable; lots of pauses and ums like he couldn't get the words out. He just sounded bad and it made me very sad. I did call him back; figured if I got to talk to him about the basics, I could be better prepared for tommorrow but he didn't pick up the phone. He did say some nice things I think...he said he hoped my holidays were good and that he was sorry to hear that I was feeling sick (I had bronchitis all last week). I don't want to overanalyze it, but maybe he just said those things for lack of anything else to say. There was no remorse or sadness in his voice - guess it's just going to happen.

I also felt sad in my heart because when I saw his number on caller ID I got such a pit in my stomach and thought whenever I saw that number pop up prior to this whole mess, how eager and happy I was that he was calling. It just makes me very, very sad to think that this is where we are at.