D called W to complain about me. lol W called back and spoke to her and then hung up. A few minutes later she called my cell but I was on the other line. I quickly answered and told her if I could call back I was tied up on the other line. I called back and no answer.
A few minutes later she calls and said "Sorry i was on the other line with sister"
My usual way of telling my story.....
W " What are you up to"
M "just catching up on some work. How are you?"
W "good. D said if she was sick you were sending her to school anyways lol"
M "I think she might be over reacting"
Some more pleasantries were exchanged and then...
M " I went and got some cupcakes for her B-Day tomorrow to take to school"
W "wow you made cupcakes"
M "Oh No I bought them"
W "oh that's good she asked if I could make her a cake"
M " yeah she said the same to me I told her I am sure W will make you a cake some day"
W " LOL wow that comment was loaded with sarcasm"
M " I know it's hard to believe but not everything out of my mouth is sarcasm or trickery. You might try believing it you might be surprised"
W " LOL Maybe I don't know. I will call tomorrow to wish her a happy Bday."
M "thank you, that is appraciated have a goodnight then"
W "oh....ok.....goodnight then"
As you can see it was mostly little talk but I like to journal it here so that I can come back to it and keep track.
I got to tell you guys I want to be friendly but the sound of her voice reminds me how hurt I am. Sometimes she sounds so happy I think to myself "who is this woman and how can she erase us so quickly" I think in her mind I am kicking my a$$ on a daily basis for letting her slip away and it gives her some satisfaction to know that I am learning just how important she was to me. She is right. Where she is wrong is that I am going to do my absolute BEST to never let her know that I am miserable.
Oh another part of the conversation I almost forgot
W "is your mom back from FL yet?"
M "yeah she came back on Sunday. I went to go say hello today"
W "went to say hello? what do you mean?"
M "she lives with brother now."
W "she does? hmm?"
M "yeah I'm pretty sure I had mentioned that before. Let me think.....Yeah I did lol"
