I would imagine you were a young woman with a clear vision of who she was....and knew exactly what she wanted....
She knew who she was at the core of her existence instead of who she had become because some knuckle-headed MLCer, said she was less than perfect...
That is why it is so important to do that mirror work, so that you know your truth..
Find that person again....
That is why you are being pushed here....because we can all see that young girl inside of you....
Mach, this is so well-stated, and I thank you. It is something I've been working on for some time. While I never lost all of her, I did lose parts of her -- the most noticeable and important parts being trust, optimism and self-esteem. I suspect that is true for many of us here. It isn't easy recovering those things through this. Detachment, reflection, support -- all of these things are helping -- but I suspect it also takes time to let those forces work, and far more time than most of us would wish.
Scylla, I may be the oldest one here, but I am still willing to give this time.
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Do you know that the harder thing to do and the right thing to do are usually the same thing? Nothing that has meaning is easy. ~ The Weather Man