2 years later it's still not getting easier

[Augtan]

Thanks Whitney!! I am better tonight..how are you?

XH called me today to check on D18, I first ignored his call then, texted him with "what's up" he told me he wanted to know about her and so I asked if he wanted me to call him back, and he did, so I called and was very distant and kept it short. He said his job leads are pickng up and we talked about D18 some too. I was distracted cause I was still at work. I had to really take the time I needed to be able to call him back, because I know he is back with OW#2 again or at least they are in good graces, which I know shouldn't matter to me, but it does. I never said a word to him that I know what is going on, but it was difficult to do that. She is just such a God-awful person and I have no clue why he wants someone like that, but not my problem. It just hurts that he comes up here and is with us and then poof he is gone. I know you are on the MLC boards too and know this is classic MLC stuff, but it is still is hard.

You are doing so great with your no contact. I know it s*cks sooo much and isn't fair at all to you or your kids. I hate where I live and miss so many things about my other life in the south. My friends, tennis all year, my gorgeous house, etc...but most of all my XH's strong arms around me each night, and when I have a night or two of that and then he is gone, it is so painful and I think self-torture..I need to stop letting that happen!!

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