First, NOTHING that you are feeling is stupid. Nothing.
Second, this is not the end! You will see him again, that I promise.
Third, please, please, please breathe and know that there are people who care for you and want to help.
Fourth, let's just say you're right and he doesn't want you back, do you believe that is the end of your life? It isn't. It isn't by a long shot. Sweetie, you're 40, there's still a lot of life to live. There's a whole world out there. And seriously, as sweet as you are, a whole world that would welcome you with wide open arms.
Fifth, get that Bible out. Ok, take it out and start reading Psalms. Right now.
Honey, please keep talking to whomever you can. You're having a bad time. All of us do. I suspect when my H finally leaves I will be having the same meltdown. You are in good company.
You need to take care of yourself. Tell me what you are doing to GAL right now... Big hugs to you!!!!
