Detachment issues

[Augtan]

I am having a hard time with the detatching thing today. I am so sick of XH and his lies and I want him to know that I know he is lying, even though I know it will do no good.

A few posts back someone said they had the hardest time saying "no" to H or XH...that is my biggest problem. I have not said no to him about anything, pretty much ever since this whole thing started. I let him cake eat and such in soooo many ways.

He has told me over and over that him and OW#2 are just friends, but I know that isn't the truth, and part of me wants her to know he is still seeing me when he comes up here, she knows he has done it in the past and always takes him back or doesn't care, I think they are at the "friend's with benefits" stage, and I guess that is what XH and I are too, only they both want it that way and have probably discussed it and agreed to it and me and XH haven't.

Anyway, I have not contacted him in over a week (he was up here that long ago so I did have contact with him then, but even before that wasn't the one to start it), he has called me and responded to emails, I have just kept it very short and sweet. It means nothing, he thinks he is so cleaver with his facebook posts that I won't know what they mean and I do. He put "da*m hot piece of tuna" as his status, well, OW#2's picture on facebook is her swimming with dolphins...who swim alongside tuna...I am not stupid..so this is a comment meant for OW#2 to tell her how hot she is. Whatever, I just hate it! Meanwhile, this is a picture from a cruise she took last week and there is also a picture with a bunch of empty plates, glasses, and a pair of mens underwear outside the door to the room and the caption is "Thanks Babe", so another man was on the cruise with her!! How stupid is XH??? Geez, he really wants that skank, slut over me?? I know, I know...but I am just venting! I haven't contacted him and i won't, but it is sooo hard right now!

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